As of late, I've been incredibly confused as to what it was I had been feeling. I was silently and viciously attacked without my knowledge, and I refused to show anger over it. For that I was accused of being a sociopath, to which anyone out there who has ever dared to read my blogs would know that to be incredibly false. Anyone who's ever known me in person would know that wasn't true. I'm filled with deep emotions that I must try to control lest they control me. I just know not to get angry over petty things because it doesn't do anyone any good.
I've learned a lot since moving to California in 2002.
1. Nice towels are worth spending a few extra dollars on.
2. People only want to know you if you can do something for them.
3. A drive along the coast will cure just about anything.
4. Traveling is worth every cent we can afford to spend on it.
5. Life is lived outside of four walls and two rooms.
5. Everything out here is measured in time, not miles.
6. There's not a person in the world who won't lie to your face.
Social graces within the workplace dictate that names shall not be named. I am personally guilty of that action, and for that action alone, I apologize. I apologize to my boss. I apologize to his wonderful wife. I apologize to those people I named. HOWEVER - what I told was true so I will not apologize for having said it.
As several people lately will attest to, when I have a problem with someone in particular, I go directly to them - not to everyone around them, people who know them, neighbors, roommates and total strangers. Those would be the actions of a coward - someone who feels it's necessary to hide within the shadows. I'm not a shadow dweller.
After posting a blog recently, I was accused of being extremely egotistical by someone who claimed to not know me and refused to put anything but "Anonymous" for their name. To clear THAT one up, I never said that everyone in the world wanted to BE me. What I said - if you can understand plain English please feel free to go back and read it again here... - was that I've known so few people who actually loved me. People who claimed to love me were actually obsessive people. I draw them to me like flies. They don't realize they are obsessed with me, and perhaps they aren't at first, but that turns out to be the case. Not every one of them want to BE me, but what I said was "People wanted to be with me, be like me, be around me or just BE me." I stand by that. Now - stop posting anonymously and your comments might actually be posted. *wink*
Those who obsess over others usually do for those reasons - am I wrong?
So I'll leave you with these final thoughts on the matter before I get back to writing about my regular program of stories, travel adventures, upcoming excitement and joyful times...
Don't obsess over others. It leads to no good.
When you break social graces, it's ok to apologize.
Any time I have a problem with someone, I go to them. If you don't hear it from me, I don't have a problem with you.
And finally - Life is too short to spend time with people who suck the happiness out of you. They aren't worth the time, so why give it to them? People, it's time to move on.