I decided to try something new today.
Each morning when I get up, I roll out of bed, get ready for work, drive to another town, and then finally driving to work. The stop over any other town is only just to pick up the mail. I do not live in the best of neighborhoods, and my office is certainly no better. So it is difficult for me to get out and exercise at all. When you don't trust the neighborhood, you don't trust the people.
This morning, rather than just being my usual lazy self, I woke up early, got out of bed, got ready for work, and left. But rather than just going to pick up the mail and then heading to the office, I decided to get to the mailbox early. This was so I could get out of the car and maybe walk a little. My life is been so busy lately that exercise has really been the last thing on my mind. I am going to do something about that.
I hardly ever make New Year's resolutions. That is because I know that the majority of them fail. I would preferred not to fail so most of the time I just avoid that chance. That is too easy of a way out. It's time a few things changed.
This morning I got to the mailbox at 9 AM. Since I was there so early, it allowed me the time to walk the entire main street of that small town. I got to look in the windows of all of the bakeries, I enjoyed looking at the dresses and pretty things in the shop windows, and I saw many smiling faces that I otherwise would not have been able to see. I listen to Christmas music on my iPhone as I did. The timing by far too quickly, and before I knew it I had to get to work. But it reminded me of something that I had long since forgotten. Where was a teenager, I walked because I like to. I walked because I like to get out of the house and just go away for little while. When I become a recluse, it would do me good to remember this.
I have been given a great opportunity that I will not disclose here. I know that I can really do something with myself, especially when I show passion for something. There is nothing that I cannot accomplish something that I feel I can do better than anyone. Well, this is certainly something that I think I can do better than most. What's more, I am not afraid. That means that I do not believe that I will fail. It is Failure that frightens me. It is failure that keeps me from trying. It is my past failures that often caused me to lose future hopes. Well, no more.
Like I said, it is time a few things changed. Why should I wait to make a New Year's resolution when the things that I want to do should not wait that long? If I wanted it, I should just go out and get it. And, I finally know what I want.
I cannot go into detail on the project that I speak, but that is because I know that there is still a lot to do, and I don't want anyone to get their hopes up. I am investing in my own future, that of my best friend. That is all I will say.