Doors, Windows and Bridges

They say that when one door closes, another opens. If that doesn't work, in the past I found a back door, a window to climb through or a sledge hammer with which to make my own door. That would be a method otherwise known as burning bridges. I've learned not to use that last method anymore.

Telling the stories in my blog that I've been able to share has become my way of opening up and telling the world where I've come from and what I've been through. It's also taught me some valuable lessons over these past 150 days. The truth in its entirely isn't always easy, but it's always worth it in the end.

I do tell the truth - but I've never gone out of my way to do so. If people asked me a question, I would answer it truthfully, but I never spoke up before voluntarily. Now, I'm actually seeking out the people I want to tell my story to and sharing it with them freely. Before this I would have been worried about hurting feelings, but it just doesn't matter when it comes down to it. Not telling a friend something important can actually serve to hurt them later on. I'd MUCH rather come out and tell them in person than just waiting for them to find out and come to me with questions.

It's not easy, going to certain people and telling them about how much my life is going to change in 6 months time, and I'm having to be selective with who it is I tell for good reason, but I know that if I don't come clean with certain people before everything happens, I'm going to end up with a lot of very hurt friends wondering what they did wrong for me to keep such a big secret from them up until the very end.

I'm going to dinner with a friend tonight and I'm going to have that long, much dreaded talk. Sure, I'm not looking forward to the reaction I'm sure to get, but it needs to be done.

These are the times that we find out who our true friends are. Those that are happy for me are the real friends. Though it's still too early to find out what the reaction will

be at the end of dinner, I'm certain that I'm doing the right thing in telling them. It wouldn't be fair to such a long-time friend to just keep them in the dark.

Wish me luck, everyone... I leave in 10 minutes.