I have been struggling lately, it's no secret. There's been a lot going on which actually HAS been kept pretty private though. For one, I thought the hives were gone and I'd finally moved past that severe allergic reaction, but it returned yesterday. As of tomorrow I will have been dealing with raw nerves, itchy skin, sleepless nights for 5 weeks. I'm exhausted and sleep deprived. I'm also trying to figure out how, while going through this physical pain, I'm going to pack all of my belongings. I'm moving in October (to a nicer neighborhood, thank goodness) so I also need to save up the money somehow for the deposit. Of course with my current medical limitations I can't work my extra jobs in order to save up the money for the move. This means it's another struggle. I can't really afford food right now either. My bumper nearly fell off my car and is currently being held on with bungee cords. Its embarrassing - but it still runs. Right now it's a lot. I'm not coping well. I'm dealing with a lot of random things coming from different angles. But I'm still alive. I'm still here. I'm fighting hard. Pretty soon I'll be back on my feet. After I move in October I'll pay less in rent every month and might have a chance to start paying off my debts. But for now, I'm scared, I'm hurting and I'm overwhelmed. It's a LOT. But I'm still alive.
If you're struggling, you're not alone.