Some days are great. Some aren't so much. But it's rare that I have an emotionally draining day like I did today. It was truly wonderful to see an old friend of mine today that I've not seen in several years, but the realizations that came to mind once we parted were incredibly surreal and heart breaking.
As I was driving home tonight a song came on the radio, and suddenly I felt the urge to cry.
Sometimes in life, we have to face certain truths.
Some things will never be the same again. Sometimes we loose people we'll never get back. Sometimes we love people who will never love us in return. Sometimes things just aren't what they seem.
But I will try to fix it.
That's possibly the biggest flaw I'll ever have. I try to fix things. I have to remember though, I can't fix others. I can only fix myself. Yet, I so often fail at that. I know I'm a mess. Still I keep trying.
Tomorrow is a new day. Perhaps I'll wake up with a new heart. But for now, I don't think I can keep fighting the urge to cry.